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Taking Stock (with a small memorial)

October 27th, 2009 at 08:35 am

Tommorrow's my 43rd birthday and I'm none to thrilled about it. I always figured I would have more, be more and need less by the time I turned 45.

As with most dreams you need to work hard to achieve them and I have worked hard. Unfortunently I have also played hard. My life has been about the best of this the most of that and now, when I finally figure out that I don't have to have the best, I am up to my chin in debt.

Funny thing is, just a year ago I was in far worse financial shape then I am now, the cards were killing me with interest (they are all paid off now) I owed almost 3 times as much on one of my cars (my focus debt atm) and my house was just refi'ed into a lower rate but with way to much principal for the amount of time we have lived here.

So why am I not thrilled? Life happens is why. I posted before that I had paid off one of my cars and, in accordence with Murphy' Law, the car promptly died. I got a new car (brand new) that in many ways I still regret buying instead of a good used one. I got my EF up to 2500.00$ and my furnace decides it needs a vacation, 1400.00$ of the EF went to fix it. I could go on but I won't try to bore you with whining.

I guess the biggest reason I'm not real happy with the upcoming b-day is my oldest dog had to be put down a few weeks ago. Me and her had a ritual we would do each year on my b-day that for some reason I am going to miss. We would walk down to the ice-cream place together and both get a cone then take a walk around the nearby park to work off the extra calories *soft smile*. This was for her and I only, my wife didn't go (we do our dinner and movie thing later). I know it's a silly thing and probably no reason to not look forward to tommorrow but it is my reason.

PS. April Mae you were my friend and my confidant. You always made me smile no matter what. I hope to see you again when my time comes. I know you will be waiting by the Rainbow Bridge for that day. For now though I hope you finally catch that rabbit you dreamed so much about, and you find it in your heart to let it go.