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Taking Stock (with a small memorial)

October 27th, 2009 at 03:35 pm

Tommorrow's my 43rd birthday and I'm none to thrilled about it. I always figured I would have more, be more and need less by the time I turned 45.

As with most dreams you need to work hard to achieve them and I have worked hard. Unfortunently I have also played hard. My life has been about the best of this the most of that and now, when I finally figure out that I don't have to have the best, I am up to my chin in debt.

Funny thing is, just a year ago I was in far worse financial shape then I am now, the cards were killing me with interest (they are all paid off now) I owed almost 3 times as much on one of my cars (my focus debt atm) and my house was just refi'ed into a lower rate but with way to much principal for the amount of time we have lived here.

So why am I not thrilled? Life happens is why. I posted before that I had paid off one of my cars and, in accordence with Murphy' Law, the car promptly died. I got a new car (brand new) that in many ways I still regret buying instead of a good used one. I got my EF up to 2500.00$ and my furnace decides it needs a vacation, 1400.00$ of the EF went to fix it. I could go on but I won't try to bore you with whining.

I guess the biggest reason I'm not real happy with the upcoming b-day is my oldest dog had to be put down a few weeks ago. Me and her had a ritual we would do each year on my b-day that for some reason I am going to miss. We would walk down to the ice-cream place together and both get a cone then take a walk around the nearby park to work off the extra calories *soft smile*. This was for her and I only, my wife didn't go (we do our dinner and movie thing later). I know it's a silly thing and probably no reason to not look forward to tommorrow but it is my reason.

PS. April Mae you were my friend and my confidant. You always made me smile no matter what. I hope to see you again when my time comes. I know you will be waiting by the Rainbow Bridge for that day. For now though I hope you finally catch that rabbit you dreamed so much about, and you find it in your heart to let it go.

5 Responses to “Taking Stock (with a small memorial)”

  1. Ima saver Says:

    I understand completely. Have the best birthday you can and remember that April loves you and wants you to be happy.

  2. LuxLiving Says:

    Beautifully written memorial and very touching! We lost our Toffee dog this year too. Those rascals sure do worm their way deep into our hearts, huh? How about treating yourself to a donation to a no-kill shelter in April Mae's honor?

    Life is about lessons and many of the things you learned by experience couldn't be learned any other way. So, don't beat yourself up over them. Get the meat from that nut and throw the shell away, and move forward all the wiser.

    Here's wishing you a very happy birthday!

  3. creditcardfree Says:

    I hope you can find a some happiness on your birthday, if for nothing else being a great friend to a special pet!!

  4. gamecock43 Says:

    I am sorry for your dog. I hate animal deaths- they are just so darn hard.

  5. campfrugal Says:

    I think you should still walk to the ice cream place and eat both the cones. One for you and one for your beloved dog. Have an awesome Birthday.

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